The rest of my life.

I spend alot of time thinking about what I want the second half of my life to feel and look like. I have come up with a few things to consider and ponder.

1. I want to be happy.

2. I want to not worry about what people think of me.

3. I want to be as healthy as I can be.

4. I want to make more art. Or be more creative I'm not sure what format that will take.

5. I want to live in a house that's clean and presentable. This means a maid, stylist, and personal assistant.

6. I want to not have to worry if I am wearing raggy underwear everyday because of unexpected trip to a doctor or hospital. This has happened twice in a 30 day period. I was wearing the the worst possible bra and underwear when I was being held against my will by a medical professional. Twice

7. I want to maintain my friendships.

8. I want to volunteer and help kids.

9. I want to improve my relationships with certain people in my family

10. I want to live near an ocean or the desert.

11. I'd like to be in love again but I am not sure about that. Love is cool and all that but it always ends up being a painful lesson to be learned for me. I always love people that aren't interested, inappropriate, or screwed up. What does that say about me? I don't regret any of it. I think I've been able to have a 'love of my life' and that was fantastic but as for the chances of that happening again...I think I'd rather buy a lotto ticket. Better odds.

12. Hot sex would be nice but I'm not sure how hot it could be when I am all broken like this. I think I'll have to adjust my expectations on that one. I'm not twenty anymore.

13. Not to be broken anymore.

14. To continue to be a good teacher.

15. I should probably learn how to knit or quilt. You know, a hobby.....