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Tomorrow I will go to work in an official capacity for a few hours. I am a bit nervous about this although I know it will be fine.

My orthopedist was reluctant to write the note that will allow me to do this. I think he didn't want to write it because he thinks I will jump right back into work without providing myself with the rest and care that I need. I think he's right because I am not good at taking care of myself. I am choosing to attend a long faculty meeting tomorrow because I am sort of going crazy at home without work. I need something I can think about. I am not sure work is the most pleasant thing but it's a fulfilling thing and that's what I need right now to get my head back in the game.

This is the longest period of time I have not worked since I was 14. It is a long time because I had a significant injury coupled with a disease that doesn't usually work itself out. I am still thinking about the cancer because there is a 50% chance it will return in a different place in my body within five years. I used to think once I got passed the cancer treatment it was all downhill from there.

I have so many concerns and questions. I am somewhat scared about my future. Part of me thought I would have less drama in the last half of my life. Who knew that outside forces would combine to make my middle age an eventful time for self reflection. I was hoping to become less emotional as I grew older. I was hoping for things to be more stable.

One thing I have learned is that nothing stays the same so you need to look at what you have now and what's on the road ahead.

Okay....it's time for me to get some rest. One final thought.

I really liked Gossip Girl and South Park tonight. They were very enjoyable because of the intelligent writing. I hope that the WGA can work out the issues they have so the writers can go back to work. I'll miss shows like this if we have to see repeats of everything because of the strike.